Friday August 13th 2010 was the day of my break up. I had a two and nine month relationship with him. No he doesn't believe that. He thinks it's only a year or two. What was worst was that I lived with him as well. Not in a big house but a studio. I didn’t know what I was thinking back then. I must be sprung on him, maybe he made my bed rock- lil wayne. It was the greatest relationship I had so far and it was my longest one too. I learned a lot. I wish he didn’t just leave me, but I guess it was for his own good as well. We went through a lot together, from family dramas to clubbing to parties. Now I must focus on myself more, self-improvement, my Asian law class and my internship next quarter. And also I must not think about him constantly; I need some kind of distraction. Find a new hobby or go with the old one. Art? Listen to new music? Make new friends and new memories. Write poems....learn break dancing! It will probably take me a very very long time to heal from this scar but I will do whatever it takes to heal. I want to be healthy and happy with my life. I must stay strong! I haven't been sick for awhile. This is the first time since 2007 that I got this sick. I was admitted into the ER on Saturday, 27th of April due to throwing up, and dizziness. Luckily, my good friends were nice enough to drive me to the ER or else I would of passed out on the floor. At the ER, I was put in a wheelchair because I was too weak to walk. Overall, I stayed there till 10:30pm, because the nurses gave me an IV treatment which lasted an hour, and examinations, blood draws etc... I also had to wait for a really long time. In between those times, my stomach growled so I asked the nurse to get something for me to eat. Hospital food isn't the greatest but it is decent. They brought me chicken with rice and carrots. The chicken was kind of dry and the rice wasn't that good. I was too weak so my boyfriend fed me. (AW) *Sighs* My boyfriend is a very good person, he says what's on his mind a lot but sometimes he just doesn't get me. Maybe I have to learn more about him and he has to do the same for me. The reason I got really sick is because I didn't get enough rest, and also midterms were coming up so I was stressing. My little sister's autobiography is going to be due on the 30th and I wanted to help her as well. Not only that, but I have to admit, my boyfriend did stress me a bit with his CAR. Now I will not go into detail because I don't think he will appreciate me telling everyone all this. But the main point is that I was stressed and stressed triggers my health condition to worsen. I woke up this morning with pain in my wrist. That's when I know it is raining outside. They say those with arthritis can predict the weather, maybe I should be a weather forecaster. haha...not. Seattle weather is crazy. One day it is sunny and the next minute, it rains...and then the sun comes out again...it's so fickled. School is out. Everyone is on vacation except for me. How boring. I have not gone here for an extremely long time! So much to update...MAN. Where do I begin?? I'll just make this post simple for tonight. Where's the love? Where's the love? I've been searching and searching, but I can't find it. I strongly believe that love takes time. Lots and lots of time. It takes a lot of energy and effort to build a strong relationship with someone; what makes me mad is when I put in so much time and effort for a person, he totally ignores me BECAUSE HE CAN'T HANDLE the truth!!! Gosh! Drained all my energy causing mental fatigue-ness (not sure if that's a word but oh well) But I am satisfied for tonight. Have a good night SEATTLE and sweet dreams!! |
